I miss those days...

a poem i wrote...out of the blue
am i really that pathetic to have written this?
or am i just a terribly and utterly sad, depressed girl?


I miss those days when we were fine,
When I was yours and you were mine

I miss those days you held me tight,
You kept me close all through the night

I miss those days you wiped my tears,
You drove away all my doubts and fears

I miss those days you whispered my name,
And I was reassured you felt the same

I miss those days I’ve been with you,
I miss your voice, your touch,
Your kiss, warmth and love
Those ideal moments I thought were true

But then again what I miss the most,
Is you, yourself, and nothing else comes close…

I miss those days we spent together,
When you used to promise me,
It would last forever…

Tonight I Can Write

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voide. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my sould is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.


practically everyone wrote a blog about this...it's funny isn't it? it's amazing how simple words can leave a great impact on us. probably...everyone who had their heart broken can relate to this. it's sad thing...love...you just don't know what to do with or without it. truly, it's complicated. no person could ever find the right words to it.

it's so peculiar that a simple i love you can make your day...

and what's even more peculiar is that by simply adding one more word, it can completely destroy you. all that's left is pain...cold, ruthless, shattering pain... at times you think you can no longer survive. you reminisce the wonderful memories you had and all the more you feel the pain stabbing at your heart...breaking it into a million pieces...



Love...such a fickle thing...it's amzaing how it affects us all.

Immobilized...

last nov. 13 a freak accident occured...ok now i'm sounding like a reporter..anyway
i twisted my knee again and moved my kneecap out of place..yipee!!! hooray for me...
can my life get any worse???

me and my clumsy self...first things first...it wasn't because of over excitement...(don't believe what other people tell you...especially when they are such...nevermind)

so i have a lot of things to cross of my list...intrams...outbound...and much more..hopefully not the upcoming retreat...hopefully.

so after three weeks i'll have this stupid immobilizer removed and if i can walk properly without pain i'm fine...and if not...say hello to the MRI. if they find a tear in any of my ligaments...well hello operating room as well and bye bye to everything i was planning to do...